I have almost completed my "up to-date" printed portfolio. It's hard because I'm constantly taking photos, so it's hard to keep printing. But when I complete it, I'm visiting my father. I'm going to show him and ask him if I've lived up to my potential. I could careless about his answer. But to see the look on his face when he sees what I've created. What has sprung to life from MY imagination. I know for a fact he'll be blown away. I know for a fact he will be jealous. I just want to see that split second look on his face and the shock after I had it over to him and tell him happy belated father's day.
What an honor it is to receive a gift from your child that they made. From beginning to end. That picked out every little detail, that sorted through two and half years of work for those perfect pieces. That made the book that they will sit in. (yes I am actually making the album they will matted in).
Does he deserve it? ha, no. But he is my father and he can't say I didn't try to involve him in my life. I want him to be proud of me, and in a way this is keeping me from being bitter towards him. Yes I know this will sit in a closet or a shelf collecting dust or get lost among his other collections of random stuff. But I feel that if I give him something, the anger he feels towards me, the hate he's developed over 18 years will lessen even if it's slightly.
I know it's a gift I should give my mother. (She's getting one too) But I think this will be good for the both of us.
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It's good that you don't harbor really negative feelings.
i pray it softens his heart and opens a door for healing and restoration in your relationship...